These past couple days have been so…odd. I’ve realized so many things in my mind and in my heart, but there’s also a distance, where I still struggle to come to terms with it and own those things that God has put on my heart.
He is my emancipator. It hasn’t been more clear than now that I need Him to release me from the bars that hold me captive. Forgiveness is not simply forgetting the emotions, the situation, the people; I’ve done too much of that. I never experienced or even understood forgiveness until I found it’s partner: reconciliation. Reconciliation to God, reconciliation to others, and reconciliation to yourself. Giving yourself up, calling on God’s power and grace to cover you, lift you from the brokenness that you see in your relationships and yourself and to be painstakingly pieced back together into someone clean, whole, and freer.
I am His, and He is mine. God owns me, and I own my identity as Christ’s child. I am made perfect in His purpose, I am made whole by his grace, I am beautifully and wonderfully made because of His love. And because of this, who, what, when, where, and why should I fear anything of this world? I need my identity in Christ, and I need to know my inheritance. I need to know what God has gifted me, I need to see the vision for the future. There is affirmation in the cross.
The inheritance is what I need, and it is also what I want. God, drive away myself, this insecure, self-conscious, conflict-avoiding child. If I am found in Christ, I am found to be filled with all his goodness, and all of myself becomes a memory of a different person so far from where I am and striving to go towards. I’ve seen someone so sure of themselves because of Christ, I’ve seen someone who walks every footstep with purpose, love, and fire.
I have seen my sin, I have received God’s cleansing and freeing power through the blood of Jesus, I have a new identity. Now I need to claim what is rightfully God’s and rightfully mine. I don’t know what it is, I don’t know where I’m going to go to find it. But God’s plan is good, His timing impeccable, and His purpose perfect for me.
Claim your inheritance, because it is yours and your’s only.